June 23rd

So um yeah....depression sucks ass. I am changing my anti depressant because the one that I was on just quit working. I was on it for 4 years, so maybe my brain just got to used to it. What sucks is that you can't just stop taking one and start taking another abruptly....you have to do it slowly, and it sucks. I am tired all the time and my brain feels so cloudy.

Then I went and got the stupid steroid shots in my back the other day and that's not making my situation any better. We went to get groceries and my back hurt worse! So much pain and pressure. I think it's messing with my blood sugar too, so all of the sudden I get really shaky. Wow, this is such a fun time in my life!

I know that time goes by fast and before I know it I'll be looking back on this time happy to be through with it, but damn does it suck atm. I want to get started on my website, but I can't even think clearly enough to get anything figured out. Trying to crochet my little Puppy Angel, but even that's slow going.

One of the bad dogs peed on my notebook that had some of my jokes that I had written (I dream of doing stand up) in it and I was so frustrated that I just threw the whole thing away....I think I am regretting that now. I think I had like 7 good jokes in there and I don't remember what they were. Oh well, it's not like I'm ever going to get a chance to do stand up anyways. Geez this was such an upbeat post!